i've been neglecting xanga, not just because of myspace but because i really have nothing left to say. But since i'm home sick with the flu OR a really bad stomach ache i guess i'll write my feelings out.
lately i haven't been myself. let me appologize to those who i've neglected & have lost touch with. I am not trying to "forget" or be "too good" for any of you. it's simply the fact that i lost myself in a daze. i hope you all understand. i don't "not like" you anymore, b'cus i love my friends each and every one of you i just need to help myself before i can help others.
peace bible study ; wow it's been a good month or so since i've seen you guys. i really miss you all. when i can drive i swear i won't miss any bible studys but since rides are such a hassel for me it's hard for me to see you guys. i just want to thank all of you , yes each and everyone of you for your friendships. You guys are truly a blessing to my life. I'm so glad that God has blessed me with such wonderful "brother&sisters" like you guys. I've grown really close to some of you and for some of us our friendships have just began. I hope that they continue to grow and strengthen as time goes on. I'm always here to listen and to talk. Thank you all for everything, really i appreciate it. <333.
my other half -- hi love! yes you get a spot on my xanga mainly b'cus you're the only friend i've seen L0L AND because of course you're my other half. i haven't seen you in a month and it's killing me. gosh i miss all the laughs, the smiles, the stupidness, everything in general. you my love are such an amazing individual regardless of how weak you think you are, you are so strong and wonderful. you've become one of the few people i actually care about like truthfully care about. you've taught me so much not just by words but by actions. =) i can't wait until i see you again, but until than just know that i miss you tons and i think of you all the time (wow don't i sound like a dyke) oh well bite me if you've got a problem b'cus you are my other half so of course i miss you ALLLLL THE TIME!<3.
as for this thing called "love"
i don't know where i stand with it.
god help me.
"loves without trust is not love at all"
Lord show me the way.
this is in your hands. lead my heart to rightousness & Glory.
i will either fail or succeed.
but even if i fail, know that my heart is with you.
[[ i will edit this later, time for a nap. ]]
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